AS IF IT WAS FIRST

The girl who lost the day before her wedding.

It was the the day where her dream wedding might come true, but a sadden thing happen to her, 3days before her wedding day she new she was in trouble but, still continue to travel alone without anyone knowing where she'd go and when will she comeback, people are so happy organizing the lady's wedding while she is not in the place to organize it on her self or even helping out with the idea, she just wanted to get marry to the man of her life. 

She travelled for 3 hours until she finally arrived in her destination, 1 hour before she arrive the lady stop her car and ask if she can ride in it up to the next bus stop, the lady is pregnant so she didn't  even bother to stop and let the lady in her car, she ask why are you alone? the lady replied to her my husband is waiting for me in the next bus stop station he wasn't able to pick me up in my work that's why I walk and ask anyone who pass by to have a ride, and then you came and stop and let me in in your car.

she replied to the lady, Your tummy is so big that's why I stop, I'm getting married in the next 3days and ...

Lady, and what? the that moment they become silent. After a few moments 

lady: If you don't mind, may i know where you going alone?

She replied: Oh! me? I was going to the nearest beach in this city, I want to have this moment before I get married

lady: Do you know someone here?

She replied: No, I just search online and saw this beautiful sea side view hotel who offers cheap stay.

lady: If you don't mind again, may I know the name of the hotel?

she replied: bay view hotel.

Lady: that's a beautiful place to stay in. By the way that is the bus station, I have to wait for my husband there.

she replied: will he be there now? or you have to wait for him?

Lady: I don't think so, but He'll be there in no time, for sure.

she replied: May I know where you stay? You can call your husband saying that you are going home now with me.

Lady: Thank you for your kindness, but i have to refuse your offer for me. My husband will fetch me here for sure, 

She replied: ok, if you insist. Thank you for your time

lady: Thank you for your kindness again, You were the first person to let me in her car. Congrats on your wedding!

and the lady open the door and and left the car and stayed at the shade of the bus station, and wait for her husband to come and fetch her. And she continue driving for an hour until she finally arrived at the beach hotel, and look for her designated room.

The caretaker of the hotel welcome's her with the flower and melon drinks as she goes up to her room with the caretaker, while waiting for the elevator to come down, the caretaker ask her some question

caretaker: You are all alone Madam?

she replied: Yes! I wanted to be alone before I can't get to have this chance again in my life, with the smile in her face.

caretaker: We will give you the peaceful stay here in our island as you with madam.

The elevator rings and they arrived at the 20th floor of the hotel. Walking slowly while looking around, she noticed something. The caretaker looked at her and said 

caretaker: Madam! this is room 207 where you are going to stay for 2days!

she replied: Thank you, 

The caretaker open her door and help her for her suitcases and bags the she brings with her. And tour her to the room and help her to some things before leaving.

caretaker: Madam! if you need any help you can fast dial this numbers, and if you request something to eat, you can also call us and we will cooked it for you.

she replied: I will do that sir, Thank you!

caretaker: If you don't need anything and you have no question at all, I may now excuse my self so you can rest madam.

she replied: Thank you sir, Oh! By the way please do not disturb me, do not ring the door bell. I will just call you if I need anything, but for the mean time. Just let me be. 

caretaker: I will do that madam, and I will also put the "Do not disturb" door banner so the crew and staff know and will not disturb you.

she replied: Thank you, you may leave now sir.

After the caretaker left the room, she continue checking the room she was in, she goes to the bathroom, she was amaze how beautiful and big it was, and she was also happy that there was also a bath tub for her fill with petals of roses and a candle to completely relax her body, when she saw it she didn't think of anything but, removed her clothes and enter the bathtub. She was so happy that she open the wine that she brought while inside the bathtub

Her: I didn't ever know if I can still experience this things after I get married to him, I hope He was so open minded about this things, Like going our, travel and eating out. Oh! shoot, I don't want to think about it for now, I have to seized this moment while I still can.

She stayed up without even noticing that it was already midnight, she was so drunk after finishing the whole bottle of wine, that she just grab the robe and lie down in her bed. 

Her: I can't imagine my life marrying someone like him, I don't know how to tell everyone that I don't love him. She started crying the whole night until she fell asleep.

She woke up after hearing her doorbell ringing for a couple of minutes already, she was dizzy but still manage to get up and ask someone outside what it is.

Her: What is it in at this time: 

caretaker: I'm sorry for waking you up Madam, But I have to deliver your breakfast.

She open the door with the angry face.

Her: Have you not seen this sign? DO NOT DISTURB!

caretaker: I am sorry madam, because you cannot have this meal after 10am that's why we have to send this to you this early.

Her: What ever! give it to me now, so I can go back to sleep.

The caretaker gave her food and apologize for the early call and waking her up. and She put her food on her table, grab a bottled water and drink. She goes to the comfort room and peed, Then she continue to lay down on her bed and sleep.

She woke up because of the light coming out in the window, and she started to open it widely so she can see what is outside and she was amazed by the view she saw over her rooms balcony.

it was a perfect picturesque view after her own eyes, her eyes started to water and it flows down on her face, and saying on her self, this is what I want, the freedom that I long for the past years. This is the silent that I want and the loud noise I wanted to hear, The sound of the waves, the gashing trees. This is what I want!.

After mesmerizing the view she had experience for not the first time but it feels like one, she ate the food that the caretaker bought for her, and started to dress up to go outside and feel the heat and touch the sand on her barefoot.

While walking towards the beach side, her eyes started to water again and it flows down to her face but this time her heart is happy, she was happy!. She removed her slippers and started to run towards the sea as if it was her first. She felt like a kid again running around the water, her fear was washed away by the sea, her eyes was amazed again by the view, her feet couldn't bare heat in the sand but still choose to her slippers away, she felt the contentment, she felt the warm embrace that she was longing for as if it was her first. Sand on her hair, sun burn on her back and the water the waves on her feet. It makes her calm, it makes her happy and finally it makes her life was complete, as if it was her first.

The day has come and it's time to leave the island where she felt something as if it was her first. She packed her clothes and load her car with her luggage and the shells she pick yesterday and ready to go. but, a lady is running towards her and shouting, Miss I think you left something in your room. She looked at the lady and waited for her.

Lady: Miss you forgot this in your room.

she replied: I did not forget that in my room.

Lady: then? you accidentally..

she continue to talk: I left that here so I could go back, so I have the reason to come back this island. I wanted to stay and maybe lived here. But, since you run just to gave it  to me, I think I have to get it and leave this Island and never comeback.

She ride the car after getting the ring from the lady, they are very confusing for her last word for them, they are murmuring saying maybe she just wanted to reason out for her fiancé to comeback here.

She arrived at her house and she saw that there is a lot of people waiting for her, because she stayed at the island without her cellphone, they didn't know if she will comeback, somethings happen to her and worst is the died. Those are just the things they think as the Lady was gone for 3days without them knowing where she is and if her wedding will be cancelled or she will comeback on her wedding day, But the day before her wedding day she arrived. 

the people are shouting saying, Thank you for coming home, we thought the worst happen to you, where where you for the time being? what happened to you? are you ok? those are just the few questions that her family friend and organizer ask her. But she just continue walking outside her car and smiled to 

her: I am ok, I am completely fine.. I have to change and sleep now, because tomorrow is the day that we are waiting for.

She continue to her room and take a bath and open her phone, she receive tons of calls and text messages from her family and friend who are waiting for her and nervous on what happen to her. While scrolling and read the messages that she had received she was looking for someone's message, she scrolled her phone for almost an hour but, didn't see her fiancés text message.

On her wedding day!

She woke up at 8am and her make-up artist come in and started to put her make-up, she was so slent that the make-up artist didn't even bother to ask her a question. She was looking at her phone for tha last time as if she was waiting for someone to text or even call her. But there is none.

Her: Hi, may I ask you a question?

make-up artist: Yes, sure what is it?

her: are you married?  If yes, how was it? 

make-up artist: Yes, it was so magical, my fiance that time texted and even call me while waiting for us to get married! ( the lady was happy and felt the excitement while narrating her story to her)

her: wow! I am sure he can't wait to see you on your white gown walking on the aile and bring you home!

make-up artist: Yes! the excitement was there at the wedding day, and I feel the butterflies on my tummy.

And the make-up artist continue to tell her wedding story she started to feel lonely on her wedding day, as if it was her fist. The time has come it was the time to start the wedding. But, the organizer are looking for something... The groom is gone! 

The wedding was cancelled because the groom can't fine anywhere and his phone is off. She didn't bother to call him, because she knew this is not the first time the he was left by that guy in the middle of nowhere. People are sad, her family are sad for her to be left as if it was her first. People are trying to comfort her, but it didn't help, she was crying on her room at night and smiling in front of her family in the morning as if nothings happen, she was trying to forget everything that happens in that day, and trying to continue on her life again just like it was all the time.

After her wedding incident, she has now the reason to drove her car and go back to her happy place. The Island, she comeback to the beach view hotel at room 207 and stayed there not 3 days, but NO DAYS! she wanted to stay until she finally able to regain her new self after the disaster. She become an island girl, her skin color change, her clothes changes and even her language change, she tried to fit in in the place where she felt the Love, securities and peace. But something is missing, she was still looking and waiting for someone who will accept her for who she was and what she is. Until she met the island boy that was a tourist once in the island, and they found each others comfort and they have the things that someone is looking for. LOVE..............

Do not let the world and people dictate on what was going to happen in your life! 

You live! You decide! 

You love, what was painful

Pain is part of love, and Love is you!